It is February 9, 2025 and I am now writing about my New Years resolutions because I procrastinate, but most importantly, I get so caught up in the day to day hustle and bustle that I forget my goals. Another part I am scared to say out loud is that I am lazy, I lack self-discipline, and motivation and quite frankly I am embarrassed about it. Up until the time I was about to write I didn’t know where I had written down my goals. This prompted me to write this post, maybe once it is posted, I can hold myself accountable, something I am not used to. I also think having huge goals overwhelms me and so I never finish them or I think I have time. But I want to end the year knowing that I chased my goals and checked off some things. I don’t have a plan for all that I want to do but I think that will come. I want to constantly have my goals in my mind. My question everyday should be what am I doing towards the goals. My to-do lists are already packed, but I don’t know how they are driving me to become the woman I want to be by the end of the year 2025. 

Practice self-care:

Practicing self-care this year looks like taking care of my appearance. I have never been someone who cared too much about what I looked like but I have realized that excess free time gave me that luxury. Now that I have many responsibilities, I have let myself go. I was one of those people who could determine to lose weight, and would go for it. Now I am the type that allows myself to indulge and indulge and gain unimaginable weight. I want to lose weight. My goal weight is between 165 lbs and 170 lbs. I have always said that I liked the way I looked at 180lbs, but I realized that would still categorize as overweight and would still be unhealthy for me, so I changed my goal as needed. 

Another way I want to take care of myself that seems trivial is taking the time to moisturize my whole body and investing in hand creams and cuticle oils. I also want to make sure my hands and feet are well manicured.

Furthering my education:

I haven’t had any formal education since 2015, that was 10 years ago. I think this has limited my ability to attain much in terms of my career. I really want to work on getting some certification to boost my career. 

Spending less:

I am not a big spender but I have realized that not prioritizing the two things mentioned above has left me so unfulfilled that I am purchasing to “feel something.” I never knew that buying could so feel good. It is almost like any bad behavior people indulge in to not feel numb or to feel numb. Like a crutch. I spend so much money on unnecessary things. Sometimes I observe myself buying things I know I don’t need, but I can’t bring myself to stop. Then I buy whatever it is, thinking I am going to use it and then it becomes a waste. I am so tired of iving life this way. I need to be delivered. 

I want to grow my social media platforms:

With the amount of time I spend on social media doom scrolling, I know I too can offer something to the world. I really want to prioritize at least two platforms, possibly“ youtube and my blog. 

This year, I want to finish what I start. Just finish SOMETHING. I have to see something through. Every year, I write down so many goals, only for the end of year to roll around not achieving a single thing. I really want this year to be different. 

I want to be a joyful mother rooted in Christ. 

I think about death a lot, not in a way that paralyzes me but the reality of it and how quickly it comes. With that in my mind, I want to be a joyful mother for my kids and for my partner. I think about when they grow up and I am gone, past 90’s I pray, one thing they would say about me is that they’re mother was a joyful mom. That I took being a mother seriously. That they learned how to be joyful and take care of themselves from me. My girl would look at me and say, I had a mother who prioritized herself and took care of me at the same time. That is what I want for my children. I also want to have them grow in a home that is clean and warm, and where the presence of the Lord is. I want them to know Jesus for themselves, but that will rest on how I introduce the Lord to them. I deeply want this for them. 

These are not quantifiable goals, but I am hoping by the end of the year, I will see myself inching towards these goals. This is essentially the woman I want to be, and I am determined to work towards that goal with God being my help. I think I am going to do quarterly check-ins. 

I want to write more. WRITE! And meet my reading goal of 50 books. 

What are some of your goals for 2025?